Day 35/100 (04.04.09)





Today is 35th day of my trip...

and it's been a week since I came to Jersey

I had so much things I wanted to do here...

I don't feel like I have accomplished everything I wanted to do...

but at least I've tried..

and gotten some positive feed backs from the places so that's good... I guess...



I was hoping to have alot of people added to my project but...

I didn't get so many from the city...

I might have to change myself...

I need to change myself...



I started this trip to challenge myself and to get out of my comfort zone...

but this is getting really comfortable for me

because I'm not pushing enough.

I tell myself I will and I try

but I get scared and intimidated...



TIME TO CHANGE!!



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This week has been pretty sweet.

Starting Monday and today, Saturday

Meeting with some of my old friends

having some relaxing time

checked out some amazing works


it's always great to see the works that I get inspire

I don't know...

it's weird... I love everything...

I love painting, drawing, music, and any form of art... they are truely amazing.

but for me to feel inspired.... it has to have people in them...

even the photographs....

I love and appreciate everything.... landscape, still life, and all...

but the ones that involve humanism... something that deals with people...

just like the one from last post... amazes me...!

I love seeing the emotions in the work...

I want to be there

I want to be able to talk to the people inside...

Hear their voices...

Look into their eyes...

but through other poeple's work. I find my self standing right by them...

and hearing their stories....

amazing feeling!

but very sad....

can't stop crying sometimes...

I hear their stories in my head... and they are just too painful.... and sometimes very gorgeous....


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walking in New York City....

I walked by so many different people

people from differnt part of the world.

people with different purposes...

people with different destinations...

people waiting for something

people rushing to get some place

people wandering around... trying to find a place to go....

people sitting in the corner... waiting for the tourists to drop a coin...

people on the street trying to get their business flowing...

and myself.... watching everyone of those people....

trying to figure out where I fit in...

trying to figure out if I can handle that...

I didn't get the answer yet....

I have so many more places to go

so many more people to meet....

I'll figure it out later if there's one place I want to be in...

but for now....

there's not a place I want to settle down...

not untill I realize what I really have to do with my life...

I mean... I know what I have to do.. but to fully understand the other's opinion about my work.

than...

I can find a place to come back....