Realization

45/100 (04.14.09)

On the way to St. Louis, MO

stopped at a town called McLean, IL...

very tiny farm town

lots of old rundown houses and barns laying around here and there

I made a stop on "N. 300 East Road"

I wanted to take some photos there


while I was taking some pictures of the barn

I saw a bird flew in and out

it happened so quick so.... I wasn't able to get a shot.

so I decided to wait...

wait till that bird fly back in to the barn

so the waiting started

waited 5 minutes...

my body started to get really cold

it was about 38' outside

but it was windy

really windy...

and very cloudy...

and gloomy...

[my favorite kind of weather

just because the lighting is very even.... haha]


I was so stupid and didn't bring a jacket with me


but Justin drove off to check out some other places...


so the waiting continued...

10 minutes passed

I started to make bird noise...

of course... the birds aren't that stupid

they won't come near me because i'm trying to make birdy sound...

another 5 minutes passed

and I'm still waiting

at same spot

afraid to look over thinking the bird might fly in and out while I'm looking away


so I started to pray

please...

the lord of bird

let this bird fly in to the barn...

still nothing happens...

another 10 more minutes passed by...

and I'm still waiting

looking at the same place...

waiting for the bird to fly in...

I started to listen

listen to the wind

the sound of grass

sound of birds

and every little sound that was coming

I started to focus

that was very interesting and exciting moment

I started to hear everything

the cars driving by miles away

snakes going by me

birds flying in the sky

I felt like I was conducting an orchestra

what a feeling


standing at one spot for 30 minutes

I started to forget how cold it was

and still waiting for the bird to fly back in


I don't know...

waiting... and waiting...

not even sure if that bird is ever going to come back...

but I'm still waiting

hoping for the bird to fly back

hoping to get one picture of the bird

another 5 minutes passed

Justin came back

and as soon as he came back

the bird showed up!!

but she flew right back out...

maybe she thought I was trying to harm her...

with great hopes of her coming back

I stood there...

few minutes passed by and the bird came back again!!

and this time she posed for me

for few seconds...!


What a feeling!!!

I got pictures!!

I don't know if they are even good enough

but I got it

Breakthrough!!!

accomplishment...

it was only 35 minutes of waiting...

but wow!



I started to think...

I've only waited for 35 minutes...

God's been waiting for thousands of years...

Father's been waiting for us

waiting for people to realize

and come out of their shell

and start make the change

change themselves

and

change the people around them

to understand the reality

hoping one person to stand up and 'say'

and lead...


I want to be the one

I'll be the one

That's right!!